Much of my fear at this time centres on various types of lack. A sense of perpetual nothingness and barrenness, where instead I wish there were plenty.
It elicits a heaviness. It feels like a weighted, encroaching, veil that folds over me: a sense of dark, slow, enveloping. This painting shows both the sparseness and the congestedness of my fear. Like an oil slick or a dense fog, it comes from above and pours over the vacant space. It has a dark beauty.
Oil on Canvas
60cms x 60cms
Painted in 2025
Detail of Barren
Oil on Canvas
60cms x 60cms
Price: £1,250
It’s as if there is a fog or membrane wrapped around me. A feeling of being trapped. Nevertheless, I am changing: I notice an intolerance for things I used to tolerate; I am connected to my shadow; my desires have more power over my soul.
Growing pains are real. This painting depicts being constricted but evolving. The experience of being incubated, swaddled, cocooned, but wanting to kick out. It is a liminal place, where one life has ended but it is not yet clear what the next one will be.
Oil on canvas
60cms x 60cms
Painted in 2025
Coccon
Oil on canvas
60 cms x 60 cms
Price: £1,250
The present feels uncomfortable. So, I grit my teeth, put my head down, work, and escape to fantasies of my future.
I imagine all the good things that will come to me when this period is over. I want time to speed up so I can get there. But then I fear my lack of it, and I want time to slow down so I don’t use it up before my body doesn’t work. This painting depicts the meeting point between these abstract periods. The centre of two imaginary worlds.
Oil on Canvas
80 cms x 120 cms
Painted in 2025
Detail of Wanting Time to Speed Up and Wanting Time to Slow Down
Oil on Canvas
80 cms x 120 cms
Price: £2,750
I used to think that I had to do everything by myself or it did not count. It is still hard to shake this belief. But through this process I have learned that having help is allowed. More than allowed: it is essential and brave.
The trial of sorting thousands of seeds is given to Psyche by Aphrodite, to Vasilisa by Baba Yaga, and to Cinderella by her stepmother. This seemingly impossible task is only completed with the help of magical helpers like birds, ants, or magic dolls: the heroine’s friends. I have a renewed gratitude for my helpers.
Oil on Canvas
60cms x 60cms
Painted in 2025
Detail of Seeds
Oil on Canvas
60cms x 60cmx
Price: £1,250
The feeling of failure is acute. I know what traditional ideas of progress and success look like in our culture, and I have not lived up to them. But I am burned to a crisp. I know what I have been striving for was not good for me.
Continuing in the old way feels like an unbearable social conformity, and I do not want to conform. My soul screams at me whenever I attempt to. This painting depicts the alternative, spirallic path. The one that feels like you are going backwards rather than forwards. But to a place that is deeper and richer.
Oil on canvas
80cms x 80cms
Painted in 2025
Detail of Non-Linear Progress
Oil on Canvas
80 cms x 80 cms
Price: £1,500